Today is my birthday!
Today I am 36 years old!
Today I am so bloody happy!
(Okay I'm cheating with this pic as it was taken 3 days ago but it was raining then and it's raining now)
But growing older hasn't always left me feeling this way.
Once I reached my 30s, the years quickly began to attach to me.
Each time my birthday came round I would take note of all the things that I didn't have, such as:
- A husband/partner
- A mortgage
- A driving licence
- A degree
And I would be smothered with a sense of dread, longing and disappointment.
My goals of living in far flung places would be replaced with more 'accessible' and 'realistic' aims! And my biological clock would sing out:
"Happy Birthday……Tick Tock"
Leading up to my birthday this year, something changed. The list above, although still lifetime priorities, didn't hold as much weight!
What mattered more was that I have lived to see 36years.
So this morning I jumped out of bed and celebrated my birthday…… in my birthday suit (obvs). Being grateful for all that I do have. All the experiences I've been fortunate to lay claim to.
As I slathered body firming cream onto my cellulite and concealer on to my eye bags. I made a personal 'New Year' resolution to stop trying to fathom out how I should act at each age.
Not only is it a ball-ache but it doesn't achieve anything apart from make the Comparison Cashier work overtime.
I'm quitting this game of age Top Trumps as I'm tired of being woeful about my age. Playing it up when around older people and playing it down when I'm with younger people. Instead of just being.
My housemate said "Can't wait to celebrate YOU today".
So that's exactly what I'm gonna do! Celebrate ME!
(Birthday lunch with my Bow Bird ❤️)
Happy Birthday to Me xx